random blurb

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zp1BYzIVi0U&feature=feedf

wow, he is AMAZING. simply talented, i must say.

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got my grades for winter quarter; holy crap what am i going to do?!
i really hope this quarter will be better. i will try harder.
I WILL GO THE DISTANCE!

one in 3.4 billion...

One in 3.4 billion...
So i was thinking about happy couples today, an what an amazing miracle each one truly is!

there are 3.4 billion men this world. 3.4 BILLION. what are the chances that you end up with the right ONE?

starting from a young age, I've been compiling a list of qualities that I long for my future spouse to have, and unsuccessfully, I have yet to find him...
but it makes sense. it's going to take time to find this male, and I realize that it's not going to be easy!

lately, i've come to accept the fact that I'm probably going to be single for a while-- or probably, anyway.
but i really accept it. i know, believe, and accept that God has someone specially designed to do life with me out there. amongst that myriad of males, there is one whom is destined to be the other half of my 'happily ever after'.

of course, i always complain and wish that i could find this person soon...
but perfection takes time (: i really don't want to settle for someone who's not meant to be; it's like trying to fit two puzzle pieces that just don't go together. i can squish and try to distort myself into something i'm not, but in the end it will only hurt me and cause me to spend more time to mend myself into my original shape again. haha, if that even makes sense.

i want to meet someone whom i can truly click with, you know? at the end of the day, i feel like that's what a lot of its about-- beyond just looks, money, family, etc etc, CHEMISTRY is supreme (right after Godliness, haha).


So, i will be patient.
after all, even the best fairy tales wouldn't be the same if Aladdin ended up with Ariel, or if Prince Charming ended up with Belle, right? :) i'll just have to wait until that perfect moment and chance where that one in 3.4 billionth guy will come along and woo me away. Cliche, but true.

till then,

adieu <3

memory

i heard once that there are two kinds of happy memories:

one, there are those memories where you look back and you realize that you were happy, even though you didn't know it at the moment.
two, there are those memories where in the moment, you recognize and embrace how happy you are, and even after that instance you feel the warmth and joy of that time for many years to come.

i think this is why so often i tend to hold onto the past. there are so many good memories there where I know I was happy, that it's difficult to let go...
or maybe, i don't necessarily have to let go.
maybe i can keep them for a while longer and linger in them from time to time, but remember that there will be many moments like that to come. or at least i hope they will.



i hate this quote because it's so cliche but...
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." — Dr. Seuss


adieu <3

praise.

Great is your faithfulness;
You never change, you never fail oh God.
it still amazes me that you are the same God whom i met many years ago... the same God who touched me with your awesome glory in middle school... the same God who approached me with peace and healing in high school.
Your glory is boundless, your mercy is unending.

even though i am so, SO inadequate in all ways, you shine through my weaknesses.
you found me and saved me in my darkest moments, and you inspire me to live this life more fully.
may you be glorified and exemplified in all the days of my life.

so at dinner with a friend today, i was given some very valuable advice.

"next time you find someone, make sure he impresses you."

someone special. not someone who's just nice or funny, but someone who's truly different and unique.
(:

change

I don't know what it is these days, but I'm just feeling so blue!
maybe it's the constant downpour of rain that we've been experiencing these days in Seattle... maybe it's the fact that it's DEADWEEK, and i feel absolutely unmotivated to study.
ughhh. i'm sucking :(

therefore, i'm going to do try to make some changes in my life starting today! goal time!

1. stop being lazy; work out five out of seven days a week
2. study EVERY DAY. NO MORE SLACKING!
3. pray, and read the Word every day. If i need wisdom or encouragement, i need to go to the source!
4. no sweets till lent is over... sigh.
5. read more. (: at least one book every two weeks.

oh, and i'm chopping off my hair. new goals, new hair! haha :) hopefully i won't look too ridiculous.




adieu. <3

friendships

friendships, i've learned, will always go through seasons.
sometimes, it'll feel like there's no one closer to you in the world than that one person.
sometimes, you'll wonder if you even knew that person at all.

but what i realize, after all the years of joy and heartbreak, is that in the end, God will bring the people in my life who are meant to be in it... and of course, he can take them right out.
no use fighting it or getting angry at God/life,
because in the end, He knows what's best for us. (:

:(

the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not be in want.

I shall not be in want.
I shall not be in want.

ahhhh i'm trying God, I really, really am.